this year has been has been full of revelations, taking turns and rounds – never would have thought of. unexpected turns here and there, haven’t found a direction yet for the future yet after passing a hard-earned exam and have found a soul mate for life on the other hand. holding hands on hands together committed for facing the unexpected.
life is such a journey that the path is so undefined and with no course offered on hand for facing the things it teaches us. was listening to steve jobs’ lecture the last two days. his 3 points great to listen and interpret. his leaving college and attending calligraphy classes, which till date have influenced the keyboards on which we type, his other point of love and loss and finally – straight forward views on death – as a change agent. i am not trying to go on the philosophical side, but yes, his views are so good that you sometimes think – the amount of huge literature he must have gone through – of various religions – to follow the same path.
i am yet to celebrate today’s day, but in time, return on this post to what we think about our lives and how do we live them. we as people are like dots connected here and there, meeting and leaving after some time. i am so influenced by a thought in high school, teaching us of being mortals – that we – humans are like the planks of wood floating on the water. we are together till we are, but our directions change as soon as the under current changes the flow of the woods floating above the surface.
i feel grateful, to those who have kept their faith in the goodness in me, and those who forgave me every-time for my mistakes. i never wholeheartedly intended to repeat those mistakes, but like always have unconventional views on getting them corrected as soon as my view on them matches yours.
my belief’s have been hammered all those times from when i have carried them and i never know if they will stay with me till the end. good times are less and normalcy sucks our life most of the times. yes, that’s true. as people try to be above normal lives, they in turn try to keep on pretending not what they are. that’s where my fiancé has given a turn around in my thoughts by asking to be – what i am ‘actually’ and never carrying the load of being what i want to be.
status changes from single to committed to married and i guess, changes will continue to come and go. as we are already happy to take what is good and leave the bad things back, hope that this change takes the life to yet another level.
well, whats your say then about your life till now…. feeling satisfied? one friend asked. i said yes and no. yes, because i took the way it came and no, ‘coz it would have been different if the key strokes to paint it in my way would have been completely different. here’s where we lack in knowledge and technology as we cannot draw the points in the front direction but we can connect them backwards. that’s human and so are we – like puppets in the hands of the Lord. what happens – happens as per his wishes – that’s all we can say.